when I made my screen name and this WordPress I vaguely wanted to do as my nom de plume suggests, but I’ve given up on that much like I give up on many things in life. for the rest of days I’m probably just gonna use this WordPress to dump all my depressing shit that…


out of the hospital, long road of recovery, i feel sick.

I want out

I’m tired, I hurt, I don’t wanna be here anymore, I just want to go home but home is gone, I hate this place, I hate this state, I’m tired and I don’t want to do this anymore. I wish I hadn’t gone to the hospital. Everyone here is amazing and polite and beautiful people,…

tired, snake, and back

oh joy, the world is being turned upside down~ what a wonderful time to feel like you’re dying inside~ my little choodleweeny (Weiner dog/chihuahua),  his name is Coal~,  tried to fight a snake, that was trying to get inside, today.   I didn’t know what kind of snake it was when I moved as fast…

fell down a hole

I started playing Final Fantasy XIV its a ton of fun and I’ve just lost myself down a hole of crafting stuff~


My Aunt passed away just a little while ago today. I don’t know what to do with myself so I guess I’m posting here. she was an amazing woman and an amazing fighter. all her life she stood up against bullies and people who looked down on others. when she saw someone being mistreated she…

Good day

woke up early, snuggled with the puppy after taking him for a walk, feels like today is gonna be a good day~

one hell of a sick week

influenza, Norovirus(stomach flu) and a UTI….IN THE SAME WEEK!! this has been the first time I felt ok enough to get on the ole laptop~

today was…a day?

had some day old wings, threw them in the air fryer to crisp up real quick and I whipped up a little teriyaki glaze to coat them. equal parts mirin, mushroom-infused dark soy sauce, and butter. it was surprisingly good!   and I think for the first time in the last 10~ years I have…

new pup

my mother had two chihuahuas named Jet(m) and Pearl(f) they weren’t from the same litter but they grew up as brother and sister with Jet being 10 weeks and Pearl 8 when we got them. unfortunately, Pearl passed a bit ago last year. since then Jet has been very melancholy and well depressed, more importantly(hey…


*slams head down* FUUUCK!