I feel conflicted, on one hand, I feel so utterly alone, on the other hand, I can’t stand most human interaction. I love to be alone but, I feel so lonely. Is it possible to want to be alone but not feel so lonely? I wish there was a magic eight ball that really worked and I could just ask the questions that haunt me and get a straight true answer. I wish medicine helped more than it hurts. I wish I could just tell myself to buck up and get over it, then actually do that.