flood~

life sure is hard. couple days ago I was cleaning up my bathroom. while sweeping behind my toilet I hit the toilet water intake valve, and it EXPLODED! water rushing everywhere, flooding the upstairs. after trying in vain to put the valve back on and trying to stop up the pipe with something, I ran…

Mayo and sadness

I made homemade mayo for the first time in a while, turned out pretty great. 1 egg yolk 2 tbls vinegar 1/2cp neutral flavored cooking oil splash of lemon juice splash of soy sauce some amount of dijon I didn’t measure. 2 small spoonfuls? beat the heck out of your eggs, vinegar, mustard, splashes, then…

isolated

I feel conflicted, on one hand, I feel so utterly alone, on the other hand, I can’t stand most human interaction. I love to be alone but, I feel so lonely. Is it possible to want to be alone but not feel so lonely? I wish there was a magic eight ball that really worked…

tired

Every day I wake up later and later. I barely get out of bed except to read. there is nothing wrong with my home life. I just can’t “do” anymore and it gets harder every day. I’m only writing this because no one in my offline life will see it. Often when I see stories…