long weekends and a tortilla burger

have to sell the childhood home after the family has been living in it for 30 or so years. everyone is busy during the week though so I have to make a special trip from where I am living now, to back “home”, which takes about 8 hours to get there and 8 hours back….

highs and lows

sigh~ it takes so much to get a “high” from life anymore~ it’s quite unfair how little it takes to feel low~ tried making some kinda chocolate cheesecake turnover and it failed SPECTACULARLY and it seems this was more than enough for me to say “fuck today~ I’m sleeping through it”

move.

I had to!   move that is. from one state to another, maybe things will be better but, I don’t think it will be.   old rent got to be too much and then I was more or less laid off for 5 or so months so my car got repo’d~   now I’ve “moved…

sigh

feels like one of those bad ones, got this stuck in my head, can’t stop it. Kalieda – Think John Wick Soundtrack 10hr loop

flood~

life sure is hard. couple days ago I was cleaning up my bathroom. while sweeping behind my toilet I hit the toilet water intake valve, and it EXPLODED! water rushing everywhere, flooding the upstairs. after trying in vain to put the valve back on and trying to stop up the pipe with something, I ran…

Mayo and sadness

I made homemade mayo for the first time in a while, turned out pretty great. 1 egg yolk 2 tbls vinegar 1/2cp neutral flavored cooking oil splash of lemon juice splash of soy sauce some amount of dijon I didn’t measure. 2 small spoonfuls? beat the heck out of your eggs, vinegar, mustard, splashes, then…

dream

today I dreamt I wasn’t alone anymore, I seemed happy.

Forfeit.

when I made my screen name and this WordPress I vaguely wanted to do as my nom de plume suggests, but I’ve given up on that much like I give up on many things in life. for the rest of days I’m probably just gonna use this WordPress to dump all my depressing shit that…